Monday, February 9, 2009
3:06 AM
I think I'm outta my mind.
What you expect? I'm only a human being after all, no superman.
All I have in me now is muted screams and suppressed feelings.
Pathetic, uh.
I can no longer ignore and block of these mind-piercing thoughts.
Didn't even had a soul to speak to. Not parents, not friends.
Father like that, Mother also.
I always told myself "I can, I can, I can. Keep moving on, things would change for the better".
But turns out, I can't and neither things has changed for the better.
Am I what? Too greedy? Or too demanding?
All I want is a normal life with normal people around me.
And is that too much to ask for?
How is it so possible for others, yet not me?
What the hell have I done to deserve all this.
Or maybe I deserved it right from the very beginning.
Don't ask why. It is the way it is.